3/30/10

But were all in this together....

"You know its not hard to see that this is GREATLY unbalanced and that things aren't right.
I know that, but for me it really hits hard if I stop and think about this moment cause its happening right now. In the same moment you have a generation who is sitting around entertaining themselves watching reality television (which to be honest is anything but real), while you have a child who is being prostituted behind closed doors and robbed of their innocence. Its not fair that we can go about consuming every single material option that comes our way, while the widow and orphan are stripped of life's basic dignities because they're victims of a conflict that simply isn't theirs. It's not fair that there is a generation who are choki
ng on their obesity while at the same time there are 30,000 children who will die today for lack of food. Its not fair that we have no problem going about spending 3 or 4 dollars on what is basically glorified tap water in a bottle with a fancy label while you have entire communities suffering at the hands of disease because the only water that they have access to is foul and polluted. It's not fair that we can sing and dance and jump around in our freedom and in our liberty while at the same time the slave remains captive out of sight and out of mind. It's not fair that we can sit and watch the evening news from the comfort of our living rooms and pity those who lived where the storms hit or the ground shook or where the water rose and simply feel sorry for them and then change the channel and get on with supper. Is it fair to walk past the homeless man and give him nothing in the assumption that he will spend it on booze or cigarettes or suggest that he go out and get a job. I mean, who are we to judge the alcoholic or the prostitute or the addict or the criminal as if we were any better? Who are we to forget the downtrodden or the oppressed or the marginalized while we go about chasing the dream? We see this imbalance and we go "man that's not right, that's not fair". A little too often that's all we do, because for us to do a little more is actually going to cost us something. And if that's where it ends, perhaps its fair to say that when we ignore the prostitute and child, that we actually lend our hand to their abuse. That when we ignore the widow and the orphan in their distress, we actually add to their pain. When we ignore the slave who remains captive that it's us who is entrapping them. That when we forget the refugee, that it's us who is displacing them. When we choose not to help the poor and needy, that we actually rob them. Perhaps the only fair thing to say is that when we forsake the lives of others, we actually forsake our own." -Were All in this Together Hillsong United http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4NlyZqJhwk

3/27/10

And we plan...


If you're anything like me, you plan. You plan all of the classes you will take until graduation or you plan on cleaning the entire house, you don't always follow through on this one but you plan it none the less. You plan on having 3 children all with brown hair and green eyes named Hannah, Taylor and Joe. Then, something happens. Something goes wrong with your plan and you get upset and you are let down, because your plan was perfect. Your plan was the plan of all plans, the most legit plan possible, nothing could be better than your plan. Who are we kidding? Do we not realize that our God knows us better than we do? Do we not realize that the creator of the world has a better plan than we do? Its time we, its time I step off of my high horse and enjoy the plan my Lord has set aside for me.

3/16/10

Spring Break in the Rocky's... kinda rocks (Pun intended)

I totally wish I was as creative as God ya know? I mean I am not saying that like I wish to be equal to him because that would be bad im saying if I had an ounce of the creativity he has I would be happy. His creation is pretty baller ya dig?!

2/26/10

But we run...


I had an incredible night last night. My best friend had the brilliant idea to go around scaring friends with these frightening masks. Our night was such a success. It did make me think though, when were scared our first reaction is to jump back, run or hide. You may think this is a stretch but that is totally what we do in real life too. We have a plan.. we expect everything to go our way, the least thing we expect is something to catch us off guard, after all we don't have the scary theme music in real life. The minute our plan has a minor bump or looks like it isn't going to work we run... we run fast. We make drastic decisions to do whatever we can to either fix our plan or make a new plan. There is typically little trust in the fact that God will work things out his way. I don't really know why I do it, I hate running. HATE it..but it never fails I continue to run.. and he continues to whisper "ye of little faith".

2/22/10

And we fight the bad fight.....


Today was difficult to say the least. Everywhere I went, though surrounded by people and friends, I felt completely alone. It felt like people looked right past me. It felt like no one really cared. I know these are thoughts I have to fight and some days are just a battle but some days feel like its a war. Today was a war; a war that I felt like I was fighting all alone. Maybe tomorrow I will see today I was victorious. Maybe.

And we love...


I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way
because I don't know any other way of loving
but this, in which there is no I nor you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep
it is your eyes that close.

Sonnet 17
by Pablo Neruda

2/21/10

Let us not run away...

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer. ~Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

2/18/10

My anyways friend...


Tonight on Private Practice (yes for some lame reason I watch it), Sam talked about being an "anyways friend". He defined this as someone who knows everything about you but loves you anyways. I am privileged to have great people in my life. Daniel is my "anyways friend". He knows me, he knows my faults, he knows my heart and loves me the same. I am so lucky to have someone who shows me unconditional love. Daniel is incredible I couldn't have a better man in my life. Then there's Hallie, who is my anyways friend (friend not lover haha). As my best friend she knows my downfalls. And yet she also loves me the same. Plain and simple, I am so blessed to have great "Anyways friends".

And we fear...

"It is when we all play safe that we create a world of utmost insecurity." -Dag Hammarskjold

2/16/10

Brighter days ahead..



You gotta Swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
Swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far
To fall off the earth
The currents will pull you
Away from your love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open yeah
I swim to brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I swim

You gotta swim
For nights that wont end
Swim for your families
Your lovers your sisters
And brothers your friends
Yeah you gotta swim
For wars without cause
Swim for the lost politicians
Who don't see their greed is a flaw
The currents will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above

I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the door
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim to brighter days
Despite of the absense of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I'm not giving in
I swim

You gotta swim
Swim in the dark
There's an ocean to drift in
Feel the tide shifting away from the spark
Yeah you gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just follow the horizon
I promise you it's not as far as you think
The currents will drag us away from our love
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim, swim
Just keep your head above
Swim

Swim by Jack's Mannequin

2/15/10

Adult hide and seek...




Hide and seek as a child was possibly the best game ever (next to red rover but they don't let you play that game anymore because its "not safe"). The hide and seek game we play as adults isn't so much fun. I know what you're thinking, when do we play hide and seek? Well I am here to tell you daily. We hide who we really are. We try and hide our flaws, we try and hide our feelings because heaven forbid someone try and seek. We keep ourselves busy, we put on make up, or if you're anything like me you wear tutu's in order to hide how you really feel. My point is that this game of hide and seek we play is valiant and sometimes were successful. Sometimes, we do all this to find that no one is seeking but we take comfort in knowing were successful at at least one thing in life and that's hiding. At what point do we get tired of hiding and decide to be the seeker? When do we stop disguising our imperfections come down from our tree of comfort and begin to seek the hearts of the ones we love?

2/14/10

The LOVE seeping from me...


Valentine's Day has come and gone . It was such a good day. I hung out with my best friend. My boy friend made me dinner and sang me a song. It was a great date until my nose began to bleed. Dear nose, way to be lame. I began thinking as I was shoving toilet paper up my nose. I guess this goes to show that LOVE is just seeping from my inner core.

Overall, successful Valentine's Day.

2/13/10

Saving V-Day one year at a time...

Valentine's Day is tomorrow. This is typically my second favorite day of the year only to follow my birthday. Yep, I am that girl. The girl who defends the "hallmark holiday". This year its been different but with the help of my wonderful roommates my spirit is coming back.

Earlier today my roommate, Marissa, ran around the house yelling we have to save "V-Day Jodi Help me save it!" Tonight, we all sat around making cards for each other (and Dan). What great friends. I know I have said this before but I have the best friends.
Hallie and Marissa, will you be mine?

Saver of Valentine's Day: Marissa Lang.

The pain...

...You begin to realize how great it is the second you start feeling the pain.
Ya know, when your stomach tightens and your abs begin to hurt. It's about the same time you can barely breathe and you begin to cry uncontrollably. You realize if you don't stop laughing you might just die right there on the kitchen floor. And that is when you realize.... that you have the best friends. The friends that can make you run to the bathroom because you're scared you just might pee in your pants. Well, I have the best friends.


p.s. I already love blogging. I enjoy being able to share my thoughts and experiences. Its a great escape.

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Everyday I fail at being perfect. This blog is a little about those failures and follows the things I am learning about me, life, and the beauty of loving the Lord. My God is in mad pursuit of my heart. He is standing at the end of the aisle waiting for His bride to run to Him... and that is what I plan on doing.

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