And I wait...

5 days until summer

5 days until I am done with ASC (after 8 semesters that sounds really weird)

13 days until I take bridal portraits

21 days until I turn 22

23 days until my bachelorette party

24 days until I move into our house 

38 days until I marry the love of my life (whoop)

39 days until the honeymoon (yay for a vacation)

It is weird to think this chapter of my life is coming to an end. I will admit I definitely didn't see it ending the way it is. If I had the power to change some things I definitely would but sadly I don't. And so that leaves me trusting that God's plan is so much bigger and better than mine. That leaves me anxiously waiting for the rest of my life to begin. 

And now we can breath a little...

Best friend,
Neither of us would admit it but we have been holding our breath over the past few weeks. To be honest every time the phone rang my heart sank to my stomach. We finally received the call today to end our worrying. I never realized how much I want to have children of our very own until I realized how much it hurt to think that I might not be able to. I am so thankful for your support during this time. You held me. You let me cry. And you told me everything would be okay. You have stepped up and taken the lead in our relationship. I am so proud of you. 46 days until we get to be husband and wife. That is 6 and a half weeks until I promise you my future. I love that we have secrets. I love the fact that our text messages look like they are in code. I love how much of a servant you are. I love that you put up with my off tune improv songs. I don't love that you are typically late but I can live with it. I love that you love Jesus more than you love me. I don't know how you ignore all of my issues and mistakes but I am so thankful you do.  You are the man of my dreams and I can't wait to spend forever with you. I love you.

Jesus,
I know that you are for me. I trust that you intend everything for good. Thank you for giving me Truth. Thank you for your grace and mercy. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. Let everything I do be glorifying to you.

And mold me...

I get to marry my best friend in 53 days!

We have pre-marriage counseling tonight so I was reading in the book were studying and there was one quote I enjoyed a lot. "What you are as a single person, you will be as a married person, only to a greater degree. Any negative character trait will be intensified in a marriage relationship, because you will feel free to let your guard down- that person has committed himself to you and you no longer have to worry about scaring him off." -Josh McDowell

Lord, continue to refine me. Help me grow more in the next 53 days than I ever have. I whole heartedly desire to be the woman of God that Daniel deserves. Continue teaching me because I have so much to learn. Thank you for your mercy and grace. Thank you for a man that radiates your love. And thank you for loving me enough to give me life and breath each day.